One on One Time

I'm writing this entry as a reminder to myself next time I'm reading over old posts. Today was one of those "long days at home". I tried four times to get Kennedy down for her morning nap just to realize she is done with her morning nap. By the time I got her down it was 12:30 and Madison and I were so exhausted we both fell asleep with her. After I woke up Madison soon woke and we spent some time together alone. It was so fun and peaceful. Then another long couple of hours followed after Kennedy woke and was very cranky with teething pain. I needed to go to the grocery store and get a lot of things so in a moment of absentmindedness I told Madison I would take her with me. I instantly wished I hadn't said that because I just wanted to go and get it over with but I had already promised her so there was no turning back. Once Madison and I got into the car it was really fun. We sang songs and we spent 2 1/2 hours at the grocery store having the best time. I really need to make time for my kids one on one because I don't always make the effort to do that but when I do it is so special for me and I can tell it is for each girl too. They feel important and I feel like I am giving them some positive attention. After baby #2 the guilt is always more abundant and I have had to make peace with the fact that I am not as good of a mother to both girls as I was when I was just a mother to one. I still have trouble with that one but it's true. I reconcile that one by believing they are getting so much from each other and that is important. Anyway.......note to self - make the time to spend one on one time with my kids every day!!!