Tonight will mark one week since my ER visit. On one hand I can't believe it has been a week already and on the other I can't believe it has ONLY been one week.
I have not driven or eaten solid food for more than 10 days. I am down 20 lbs. from my pre-op appointment about 2 weeks ago. I am weak and tired. I am, however, having much less pain. THIS is a great thing. Of course the worry of another hemorrhage is clouding all of my thoughts.
I had my dad take me to Fred Meyer today. Being out in the cold set off a major coughing spell scaring me half to death but it got under control and I managed to walk around Fred Meyer for a bit and get a few things we needed. I even got some soup. I have never tasted such good soup in my entire life. It was chicken noodle and one of their hot choices. I skimmed the top to avoid getting any actual chicken or noodles. I'm not supposed to eat any solid food for another week.
This is getting incredibly difficult on everyone. The kids are having a hard time with me being "sick" and tired all of the time and Eric is not exactly in his element taking over my role. He's doing a great job but it's just not flowing like we are all used to and it's stressing everyone out a bit. The kids, Madison especially, are acting out a lot. I am starting to feel incredibly frustrated and guilty that I can't resume my job as "mom" quicker but I know healing is the most important thing. The kids will adjust and we'll get through this, I just have to keep reminding myself of that fact.
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